Hi Pretties,
It’s been way too long but I always say that. I pray that anyone reading this post is met with an abundance of love, health and peace.
I want to make this a light post. My last few posts were a little heavy. I want to bring some lightness back because hello, balance lol.
This year went by so fast it almost feels like a blur. Do you agree? It feels like time is just going so fast. There’s barely a chance to grasp or process anything because everything is just moving so fast.
Anyway this year was blah. By blah I mean some exciting things mixed in but overall just a lot of adulting moments.
I’m not sure why I am sharing this, just felt like I haven’t posted in a while. I don’t want to let go of this blog. At this point, it’s like an open notebook where I share details of my life. A space to make sense of difficult life experiences that feel relatable. To share unlocked wisdom. There’s some beauty and fashion mixed in as well.
Speaking of fashion this year I participated in a fashion show as a designer. I made 5 pieces well 6 counting the one I was wearing. It was a challenge but I am so glad I stuck with it. It was more about proving to myself that I can do hard things that scare me. I am not a social person. I warm up perfectly to cameras behind closed doors but with live audience I freak out. I am never the loudest person in a room of strangers. This is nuts because around my core people, I am very open and outspoken, the total opposite. I wanted to do this show not only to showcase my talent but also to put myself out there.
It was a challenge, at one point the fear and anxiety was so strong I just couldn’t sew. I did everything around it; bought the fabric, had the patterns, organized my space, cleaned, organized again. I did all the things. But when it came down to actually sew I just couldn’t get myself to sit and do it. An overload of anxiety just paralyzed me.
The deadline for the fashion show was only 2 weeks away. I had completed only half of one dress by that point. I always say I work great under pressure. When I was in college, I would write my papers at the last minute. I still managed to get excellent grades. It’s not laziness or slacking it’s misplaced fear.
In reality that’s what procrastination is fear. The pressure builds up so high to the point you’re stuck. Perfectionism also comes into the mix. Wanting to be so perfect that it’s better not do anything than to do something that isn’t 100%. And that is when missed opportunities happen.
I give others so much grace and that’s what this event taught me to give myself the same grace. No one will be perfect at anything the first time. You get better and better each time. That’s how skills are built. No one is born knowing. Even when it comes naturally, take chances. Put yourself out there. Fail and learn from it. That process perfects your craft. I say those words but its not easy to let go of fear, anxiety and perfectionist trait.
I was nervous from the moment I agreed to do the fashion show. That nervousness stayed with me till the moment I got off the runway. But I did it and I am so proud of myself. I did it with fear but I did it and honestly it went amazing. My designs looked beautiful on the models, I truly felt accomplished. I strive to keep pushing myself to do the uncomfortable things. I aim to be my true self without limitation. I continue growing my craft, gently letting go of the fear of failing. Below is the video of the fashion show and also the outfit that I made for myself.
I would love to read your thoughts/feedback.
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